Soliloquy

It was the Godless month
When the Sun that burned my skin started to set
When the olives bloomed suddenly,
Exuding a fragrance I could faintly smell

Hollow and hugging my knees, I saw a young demon
Who lured me to the last flame of darkness dwelling within

It was the frosty month, when if I let out a breath
It would turn faintly white and dissolve in the night
When I saw the chrysanthemums that sacrificed
The sasanqua blooming at the roadside

I wandered befuddled for days, until I saw
A tiny young demon with eyes pointed toward me

Even so, even so, my vow is vanishing
And I'll strangle my neck with that string
Still, still, I can't go through with it
In the end I can't forget the promised day

Human hearts are like water, if colour spills in there's chaos
No matter how much of the sediment I hide
It sinks to the bottom, to the bottom, and solidifies

Shrinking, crouching, and cowering, I keep kindling the fire
Crunching rocks and quietly boiling them
Oh life, burn peacefully
If someday my tears dry up in the desert of time
This world shall mourn, and I believe
That the merciful rain will descend upon a new land

Even so, even so, my vow is vanishing
And I'll strangle my neck with that string
Still, still, I can't go through with it
In the end I can't forget the promised day